Many seasons of losing bits of myself. Allowing the chlorophyll to seep away and show the world my true colors. Making myself vulnerable while being brave enough to bare leafless branches. Letting go of the leaves I’ve worked so hard to grow. Ones I thought I needed.
The leaves are just beginning to turn. They are changing. Dying. I need to remember there is beauty in these deaths.
I will survive. I can let go.
Dried-up dreams are getting caught in autumn breezes and whipping around my feet. I can let them scratch my ankles or I can dance with them.
Do what you feel in your heart to be right — for you’ll be criticized anyway.
~ Eleanor Roosevelt
Truer words were never spoken.
Or perhaps they were. Regardless, these are up there in the top ten of How to Live Your Life.
Eleanor goes on to say that “you’ll be damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.” Hot damn! She’s right.
You can never please everyone. Let me just go ahead and say that again. You can never. Please. Everyone.
I’m speaking to myself, of course, as I often always do on this blog but I believe these words fiercely.
I know I’m a good person so why don’t I just do what I feel in my heart to be right?
Worrying what others might think or how they may perceive what I do (or don’t do) is a terrible way to live. How people choose to see me is not in my control. (And really not my problem. Unless I make it my problem. Which we’ve just established it’s not.)
The bottom line here is that, yes, you’ll be damned if you do, damned if you don’t. So…